Day #1: I woke; I got no hope
There was no one that I could turn to
No reason to call or see you
Just a continuum to pass through
Saw no way out; riddled with doubt
Living with the never-ending fear
I did declare to brittle air, “Hope is a lie & there’s nothing out there!”
Nothing but tragedy & hate
Carry the fate we re-create
Data is power
It’s not too late
There is no way, there is no way
Then again, Day #2: my eyes!
They realised all of the negative shit has been running me down
Spinning me round
Relief in knowing that one day I’d kill myself – I needed help
(I need your help)
I turned to you
We went to the park
Started to cry - apologised
You said “There’s nothing to be sorry for”
So much of me had been shut down
Repression kills
Got to let it out
You said, “It’s OK, just take your time.”
Out of my mind, out of mind
I cannot live with hopelessness
In hopelessness
Where to begin when everything hidden within is an avalanche?
Start anywhere, we’ll go from there
Day #3 was my first appointment & it went pretty well
So much to tell
I need something to look forward to
Put in the work
The dirt & hurt
They can’t deny my right to be alive
Out & about
I’ll shout it out
I cannot live any time but now
Where have I been & where do I go?
Fucked if I know
Fucked if I know but here we go
I will not live with hopelessness
I cannot live
I cannot die
I don’t know why
You give me hope
Somewhere to go
I can see that I need to be happy & hopefully we’ll be free
From hopelessness
Grizzly Bear’s classic debut gets a 15th anniversary vinyl reissue, with a digital companion featuring a bevy of remixes. Bandcamp New & Notable Jan 12, 2020